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Like father…

In his whimsical autobiography, H.G. Wells – detailing his family’s history – claims that his father, while in service as a gardener, stood model for the sneaking youth in the painting The Maid and the Magpie by Sir Edwin Landseer.

„…a frequent visitor at Redleaf was Sir Edwin Landseer, the „animal painter,“ …who did those grave impassive lions at the base of the Nelson monument in Trafalgar Square. My father served as artist’s model on several occasions, and for many years he was to be seen in the National Gallery,… But afterwards the Landseers were all sent to the Tate Gallery at Millbank and there a sudden flood damaged or destroyed most of them and washed away that record of my father altogether.

finish

seeking chaos – sandpaper for the soul that i have polished to an indifferent, non-stick finish, repelling disturbances – irrational, inconclusive, incoherent, outlandish. 

this here

will the momentum of puberty’s paroxysms suffice to persist in the investigation? and truth and wisdom – arbitrary, spacious, elusive and implacable? is there consolation? how to endure the tears from the stinging light, the tears of epiphany…the bliss of grasping, even for a moment, a meaning, or an idea, but not consciously, but with the soul and mind and senses.

truth demanded many lives, of men worthier than i. and with my social suicide I join them, if only thus – still meek and doubting, fearful and selfish, still glancing back nostalgically, at the other life – so snug, so peaceful. and so false.

that there

mystery. magic. puzzles – riddles. secrets. arcane or prosaic. like the horizon: blue-sky, taunting and intimidating. the unknown. the unknowable, yet explained and evident. although I understand, I nonetheless acknowledge its deceitful existence – there it is, I see it and how, then, I ask increduously, can it be a concept, just an idea and not a thing – this, that I see. imperceptibly moving forward, like time – it too, just a figment.

or love. like horizon’s edge, endlessly stretched (like giacometti’s limb) between me and that life, the mirage is measured into existence, as a formula, or seized by a stanza: there – you point at it – there, can you not see it? can you not believe in it? and then, reason, with a slightly raised eyebrow, strokes my childish head with its pitiless palm and says: no, dear child, it is only an illusion.

Bücher 2019…

Herta Müller Herztier LIT ***** + *
Tom Holland Rubicon SB
Richard Harris Dictator (second time around, to complete the trilogy begun backwards) LIT
Oliver Sacks The Man Who Mistook His Wife for a Hat LIT ***
Mary Stewart Crystal Cave (The Arthurian Saga, Book 1) third or fourth reread, i lost track… LIT
Sibylle Berg Vielen Dank für das Leben LIT **
Mary Stewart The Hollow Hills (The Arthurian Saga, Book 2) LIT
Mary Stewart The Last Enchantment  (The Arthurian Saga, Book 3) LIT
Siri Hustvedt Summer without Men LIT ****
Luciano de Crescenzo Die Geschichte der griechischen Philosophie Band 1 + 2 SB ***
Étienne de La Boétie Von der freiwilligen Knechtschaft des Menschen SB
Jacob und Wilhelm Grimm Kinder- und Hausmärchen LIT
Lukas Rietzschel Mit der Faust in die Welt schlagen LIT **
Alexander Sergejewitsch Puschkin Jewgeni Onegin ( annual reread) LYR (unrateable)
Alain de Botton The Consolations of Philosophy (reread or rather: bedstand companion) SB
Jane Bowles Two Serious Ladies LIT ***
Beryl Bainbridge According to Queeny LIT ****
Amor Towles A Gentleman In Moscow LIT **
Nick Hornby Funny Girl  LIT **
Damon Galgut Arctic Summer LIT***


Miss Gregory is not my cup of tea. 100+ frustrating pages of the first book of the Wideacre Trilogy is all i could endure.
Angelesen: Sibirische Sommer mit Dostojewski von Jan Brokken. Frau Karnovsky schreibt sehr richtig, dass Brokkens Schreibstil eine Geschmackssache sei. Dieser Stil schmekct nach einem amtlichen Bericht: soweit enfernt von Literatur war nur Frau Rossbacher, bisher.

Wishlist/Prospect reading

To compliment my current compulsion
Samuel Johnson The History of Rasselas, Prince of Abissinia

To feed my five-year-old monkey
Tom Holland Dynasty 
Mary Beard SPQR, Women and Power

To dip my toes in the Mediterranean
Roberto Bolaño 2666


On the »to read« stack

Dorris Lessing The Marriages Between Zones Three, Four and Five
Zeruya Shalev Für den Rest des Lebens
Susan Sontag Stories
Jimena Canales The Physicist & the Philosopher

Wishlist/Prospect reading

To compliment my current compulsion
Samuel Johnson The History of Rasselas, Prince of Abissinia

To feed my five-year-old monkey
Tom Holland Dynasty 
Mary Beard SPQR, Women and Power

To dip my toes in the Mediterranean
Roberto Bolaño 2666





Legende
LIT = Literatur Fiction
SB = Sachbuch N(on)F(iction)
CO = Comic Graphic Novel
LYR = Lyrik Poetry
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